Thursday, July 14, 2011

keep urself happy

The day I had an amazing day I neva thought it would be over soon.
Take anything just a hangout with buddies or spending time with your guy or a good sleep or just a thing u love doing. wat happens wen its over n you know it is just done forever this day won't return the time u had won't come back n its over forever.
Personally when I had this feeling even after knowing all the above when I went through it I felt horrible like everything is there for a moment n then its like never happened... how sad is life ??
Gosh!! Wen I had that moment I felt lonely, like no matter what you do at the end you have to stay with YOU no matter what!! So always treat yourself right with clear conscience be right to yourself its you who has to be alone and its life. If there was no videos photos or technology I would definitely take it as a dream,how would u prove that this funtime happened. Life is not fair:(

mother oh dear

My mom used to be supportive wen I was in high school then wen I graduated dad had started understand me as well n mom just stopped right there like she doesn't exist. Me n dad were still walkin the walk n mom just left us n started pouring her attention to a bitch who is an underdog n a biatch stranding us to death.
Mom used to tell me wen I was a kid that if u appreciate someone then they would get proud n wouldn't do the thing good , therefore she never appreciated anyone n even I received same treatment with no exception as her daughter which made me feel like I lack things never thought I was fit cuz mom said I wasn't even after I was and I lost confidence felt like a failure like I am unfit to receive good things.
- am so used to it if I get something easily I feel like something is wrong wen I get it with all my hardwork I feel I deserve it.
My mother knows how important is appreciation but still she doesn't she just can't say good things except cursing us in literal sense.
At times its important to appericate it can make someone better at what they are doin n it can mean a lottttt to them. Showing gratitude is also very important which my mother never does .